Timeless

I need to change how I do things and quit making deadlines for myself because time and I simply do not get along. I made a note on Handmaidens, a women's webzine, that I would have it out by June 5.... well, it is never going to happen. I am not capable of working on it tonight, but even if I were and labored through until morning, it would be far from finished. It usually takes me four to five hours per page... longer if I'm doing the writing.

I know I can never predict how well I'll be able to function at any given time. So why do I keep boxing myself in? Maybe I'm saying it like I hope it will happen. It would not be a huge deal except it's like breaking a promise. Lord, please forgive... again, and remind me not to keep doing this.

An old song speaks of keeping time in a bottle. If I had some bottled up time, I am convinced I'd lose it or break it. Thank goodness I belong to the Lord and He redeems all my messes. I am forgiven and He remembers no more the promises I've broken out of ignorance or poor judgment or just plain lack of understanding. But people are another matter entirely. People may be inconvenienced by my misjudgment of time and the promises I don't keep. People are some of my favorite beings and I hate letting them down like that.

But God goes one better. He often turns my messes and misses into something good! He has made them into blessings of the most unexpected sort... but I have neither the stamina nor the time to elaborate just now. Suffice it to say that even though Handmaidens is going to be later and Jerri's Munchies may not be out in June as planned, God has overlaid my fretting heart with His peace that surpasses understanding. I will work as hard and as soon as I can but thanks to Him I won't let myself fret about what I cannot do just now.