Possibilities

I have been working on a project for my church for several days. Well, actually, in varied forms, for about a month. I am still not sure why I was invited to be a part of this operation which is quite involved and has great importance for the future of the local church family.

It is quite humbling and I know all too well that I am not up to the task. Several times, I've asked myself why I accepted, why I wasn't more frank about my limited abilities. Oh yes, I told them up front about my brain injury, but I know that few people really grasp the degree it interferes with productivity. I am "good in the moment," but the moment is short and usually lost later on. Even though I seem on task because I do eye contact, rephrase what has been said and nod a lot, I am often lost.

I have had to ask the pastor for clarification twice... the exact same question. This time, he wrote it out for me. I should have requested that to begin with, but even so, I am unequal to the task.

So, here I am with my work incomplete and needing to finish by tomorrow. I have prayed and prayed, but it is not yet done. God is letting me fully feel the impact of my complete inability to do this. Yet, amazingly, He has granted me the faith to believe it will be done!

Now, deadline or no, I am waiting on the Lord for inspiration. I have several ideas and I know He will put them together or lead me to do so... With God all things are possible.