Nothing in Secret

It has long been my goal to live in such a way that the only secrets I need to keep are the fun ones like a birthday surprise or coordinating a special outing with a twist. I long to make my loved ones proud of me and to bring joy to the Lord. Of course, I fall far short of these goals, but as I become ever more committed to a life of transparency, I see that it has indeed been changing me all along.

Except as it pertains to spreading the Gospel, I find I care less and less about what others think. I am not here to please or impress anyone except God. If possible, I want to avoid offending anyone, yet all the while knowing my stand for Christ is, by definition, a stand against abortion, homosexuality and other practices God has clearly denounced as sin.

Someone I love dearly once said of me, "She's always trying to shove Jesus down our throats." I was confused since I had said little to her about her faith, and I had not pushed her about hers. In fact I had thought her to be a believer as she had once claimed to be. What came about was this: Yes, she's a Christian, but thinks I get too carried away with it. Hmmm.

I am still praying about the letter I wrote to Scott's parole board. I have not yet sent it but it needs to go out this week.

Tomorrow, Crystal has no military duties and we will spend the day together, Richard, Crystal and I. I have a 10:00 am appointment with someone at the Holy Land Experience and then the day is ours! I need to get some sleep but am wide awake, excited as a four-year old about tomorrow.